Meanwhile… 044
Meanwhile… 044
I struggle with the whole formalities that surround smiling, something that I’ve mentioned before in this series in the context of being Autistic, but I also struggle with it as someone who suffers from depression.
For a long time, both before and after accepting that medication was something I required to maintain an “even keel” and function better, I also felt weighed by what I perceived to be an obligation to be “happy”. I wasn’t. No one is. But in accepting that also, I found a greater degree of happiness in the fact that happiness would come when it came.
I no longer fought my depression. I didn’t embrace it, but I no longer battled it, I accepted it as something that I would at times have to simply ride out… and in that I won the battle by conceding defeat when needed. With that, I also found myself less prone to the anxiety that came in trying to be happy for the benefit of others.
That’s what this instalment is - a clown realising he know longer needs to wear a smile and finding a smile in that realisation when he leaves that smile upon the mirror along with his not-so-subtle resignation.
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