Meanwhile… 071
Meanwhile… 071
I’ve mentioned in the comic explanations here before that part of my Autistic processing when I’m engaging with others is that I recall a lot of past events, conversations and interactions.
What this also means is that every new interaction, while I’m trying to take that in and navigate it, part of my brain is most likely also processing every other interaction I’ve had with that person. It’s like having a brain that’s a computer that you can’t quite successfully defrag.
It can get tiring at times, especially if it involves past interactions that were unpleasant, be it due to my own shortcomings or the other person. It’s even more tricky in romantic relationships because it feels even more so that it’s best to tread carefully, which only adds to the level of processing that can sometimes occur.
It also means that sometimes when talking with others I may seem distant or detached, but that’s not the case at all. If anything there’s sometimes too much attachment and not enough distance - it makes appearing “present” hard sometimes when you’re also simultaneously revisiting the past.
There’s a pun there somewhere about conversations being “past-tense”, and I suppose that was it. That was the pun. You’re welcome.
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